9/300: Name one thing you have lied to yourself about. Why did you do this?
I have lied to myself to believe that I prefer chaos over order.
This is more than the fact that I grew up with a messy bedroom and that if it were up to me I’d leave clean clothes unfolded in the laundry hamper.
It has to do with how I see things.
For my line of work I need to be ok with ambiguity and uncertainty. I am constantly working with clients to venture down a road of unknowns, to be ok with not knowing all the answers and to embrace iteration.
It would appear that this is a preference for chaos, for messy situations and a loss of control. In reality, the way I deal with all this chaos and complexity is with order. Typically that order comes from process. Knowing the steps of getting from one place to the next. It isn’t to say I have the answers from the get go or to even be looking for the right answers, but rather to let the answers emerge from the chaos.
I guess the lie is that I like to keep the chaos chaotic when actually I like to find order in the chaos.